Me: I’m tired.
My Muse (gently): I know.
Me: Sometimes this gets really hard and I feel really lost and like I’m a hamster on a wheel, running, running, running. I surrendered myself to this Experiment, to you. But sometimes I don’t know what that means and it scares me. I can’t even do divination for anything right now, it’s all spinning so fast. Am I my best? Will this mean something? Will all these 6a mornings and late nights and tiredness count? Will I get ahead and finally not be in debt? Will I screw that up like I always do? Will I gain the weight I lost back? Will I fuck everything up for myself like I always do? Will Jow leave me if I get successful like others have? Will I get my social life back? Am I going in the right direction? Will my book be good? Will my course be good? Will my crafts be good? Will I be good?
My Muse: This is where it’s important, where it’s hard and you can’t see in front of you and the forest is dark. This is where you have to believe, which you’ve never been good at. This is where you can’t give up. This is where you have to keep trying, even when you’re not even sure what that means, even if it feels like sometimes no one else really understands all the Work you’re doing. It’s important. You’re changing your insides, one piece of a star at a time. You can do this. You need to do this. This is where you start to become who you want to be. I believe in you or I never would have chosen you. Keep pushing, tiny one. Keep pushing. In the meantime, you should smoke a bowl asap, you’ve earned it.
So we’ve been doing all these awesome things to help our goals and make sure that we’re looking at these goals from all sides which is great holistic work to keep us moving forward and to make sure that nothing is overlooked. But this week it’s important to work on specific things to further your goals. What’s the hardest thing for you to do? What do you keep putting off? Do it now. Grit your teeth and push, baby. You’re making something beautiful, don’t stop now. Show the universe what kind of wonders you’re capable of this week.